"i don't want to die,"
   she said,
but is that what she felt?
   to do or die
to die or do
what's left for her
   is barely clear

do i want to die?
   do i want to die?
      do i want to die?

the drugs are weak
   the knife is dull
      no straight razors anywhere
         no rope
            no gun
               no broken source of gas

but do i want to die?

   (and when?)