Thoughts evoked
   Stirred en masse
Thoughts I hadn't considered
   In a very long time

Questions asked
   of my mind,
      my heart
      my soul

Is it better off this way
   or that?
Am I better off with
   or without?

The saying goes:
  "If you love someone,
      set them free.
   If they come back,
      they're yours,
   If not,
      they never were."
But what if,
   In the act of setting them free,
   they are hurt so deeply,
   They are afraid to return?

Is it best
   to try new things
      and lose stability
   or to stay tied down
      and miss oppertunity?

I don't even know
   whether to discuss this with him
   or to keep it hidden,
   tucked inside myself
   until I decide

I cannot imagine
   life without him
I cannot imagine
   never doing anything else
I cannot fathom
   my ability to cope with either
   or his to accept things
      for how I decide

The next step is a shakey one
Will I balance and move on
Or will I fall and be crushed?